You are what I always looked for. Love of my life.

From adolescent chimera to autumnal reality… a true story.

Two-channel performance video installation.

Duration: 3´ 12”

Performers: Andrea Juan and Gabriel Penedo Diego

Music: Horizons by Roger Subirana Mata

Camera, edition and general direction: Andrea Juan and Gabriel Penedo Diego.

Exhibition:

L'être d'amour, Lettres d'amour.

Chorégraphie de la matière

Space:

Espace Mably - Salle Capitulaire

Bordeaux - France

Curators:

Connectif Plateforme Créative

Elissar Kanso and Carmen Herrera Nolorve

Date: November 16 to 25, 2022

You are what I always looked for. Love of my life!.

From adolescent chimera to autumnal reality… a true story.

The search for true love, for the sumun, for the best, for what makes us feel complete, ecstatic, unique and immensely happy.

That love where passion, respect, companionship, dreams, goals, everything... is spoken in the same common language.

The search for that ideal love is generally unrewarding and painful, many illusions and many disappointments... Too many vain hopes!

Most of the time that search is interrupted or abandoned. Boredom ends up making us believe that love simply does not exist.

When that belief becomes our certainty, we run the risk of giving ourselves over to love that is less dazzling but safe and predictable.

But…

When we know that life is one and very short and that we deserve to find it or at least be faithful to our ideals and continue looking for it until the end.

When we refuse, over and over again, to live as love something that does not complete us, does not fill us, does not excite us and does not make us vibrate...

When we don't abandon ourselves in the comfort of what is known, when our ideals prevail over good judgment, when certainties are not enough, when we defy logic, when our emotions rule, when we continue to search hard and stubbornly...

When we know what we are looking for, when experience tells us what we should delve into and when, fundamentally, we know what we do not want...

When we keep our eyes open and our hearts expectant, when we don't give up, when...

When we lose the fear of growing old alone, accepting the price for not betraying ourselves.

When we continue to search, despite the years, despite the wounds, despite everything, then, only then, can it come.

We had found it and very soon, but we could not realize it. They had to spend 30 years without knowing about each other, 30 years of sterile searches, 30 years of lost joint opportunities... to, by chance, meet again and realize it.

You were there, I was here, we were always… We just had to come back to look for us.

Now we are complete and immensely happy….